wah my blog got devoted readers ar
=X
sorry lahs nv update often
cos everytime i wanna update
then my mind blank
LOL

woo hols le
but one bad thing is our class is gonna SPLIT!
sad sad~
hopefully i'll get back some of u all in my class
HOPE!

cant wait for the chalet! =P



oh ya
something interesting happened to my dad yesterday
u noe the spiral carpark in taka?
while my dad was driving up
his car ran out of gas at the 4th floor
so imagine all the other ppl behind him
hahas they all got stuck
from 4th floor to 1st
then they all had to reverse all the way
so that my dad can go and refill the gas
LOL lor
so suay

FUCK LAH!
i missed my RJ timing
my comp cocked up
really felt like crying
but nvm
omg i can get frustrated over my RJ
wad is wrong wif mi

i think im gonna break down anytime
getting super tired all the time
and emotional easily
plus always needing to go work doesnt help
and everyone getting sick ard mi
mabbi i got the virus
what a way to end the semester

















FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahas!
shihui had a first kiss alrdy!!!





























by a FLY!!!
=X

went to book chalet on Monday!
hahas 30 & 31 August
woohoo!~
jingwen and shihui went to book on sat
but then they forgot they need to be 18 to book
made a wasted trip =X
seems like im the oldest
hahas!
anyways all girls chalet SHIOK

went to watch "see no evil" afterwards
GROSS show
by WWE somemore
LOL! the pycho is a huge huge guy
who i think is a wrestler
shihui somemore say he is cutE
diaO~
the show is full of blood and eyeballs
hahas lots of digging out of eyes
and swallowing of handphone
and dogs eating human
and chopping off of body parts
LOL dont think its really worth the $$
but at least the company makes up for it
=D~



29th aug! yays! sherrie i'll be waiting~ =P
love YA

wooooo~
the park near my house has gei tai
havent seen one for such a long time
interestinG
as my dad was driving past it i was trying to see whether there were really one row of empty seats for "them"
lots of ppl were watching it sia
they even park their cars on the side of the road
craZY!~

anyways went out wif my dad's boss yesterday
he's frm belgium...
he used to always come to singapore to visit us
and he used to play with mi and my brothers
time really past by so quickly
havent seen him for almost 10 years
he changed so much frm when i remembered
i guess i changed alot too
reminisces...
anyways its times like this tat i miss the past
i hope we get to go to belgium to visit him sometime
tat time we went but didnt contact him
sians


really obsessing recently
im going crazY
cant stop it
its like my brain is gonna EXPLODE!
STOP IT! BLEAH
i wish i can dig my brain out
LOL!

Worked on NDP
hahas
anyways i feel that this year
everything is like so dull
like its 7th mth now
but i dont feel a thing
NDP oso = nothinggg
mabbi the older u get,
the more meaningless things become?

anyways at my workplace
the people dere are quite nice
since tat nicole got transferred away
the only thing i've got a complain about
is that they make me go back dere too many times a week
and the money is pathetic
i always say i wanna quit
but i cant seem to do it
like im gonna let them down like tat
i'll feel bad
its like the more i work,
the more i noe about them
the more i wont quit
stupid huhs

anyways everytime i go dere
i get like BIG welcomes from the bakers
hahas!
fun lahs in a way
*they dont look half bad too*
a bonus i guess LOL!

today im in a non-emo mood
LOL!
cos i won a BET!!!
you noe wad i mean rite, zk
hahas shiok...
starting from monday hoR....
help mi save money
thanks =X

and THANKS u all for worrying bout mi

jialing... lend mi ur shoulder ar
later someone jealous can~ LOL!
and i wont do anything lames lahs
i noe u all love mi too much le
WAHAHAA im being crappy

sherrie..... u noe i think of ya all the time tOO~
in the toliet oso =X
and tat idiot was kailing okay... hahas!
plus u better CALL MI MAN!
24th august... i surely will remember! =P

jingwen~ u must tryy to forget bout tat idiot
and MOVE ON!
theres lots of better guys out there
hmm... bout finding a good one in our sch?
i think u have to look very very hard
jiayou hoR =X
u can try looking in other places too~
just a suggestion~

seems like im writing a will or something
BLEAH lols

is it my fault im always not taken seriously?

what i've done is destroyed my reputation to entertain ppl
i know it has helped me made more frens
but wads these frens when they onli look to u to entertain them
and when u r down
they will just kick u aside

i've realised it long ago
that ppl ignore what i say
that they dont bother bout any serious things i said
whenever i try to b serious
they think im crapping again

i mean even if i do crap alot
it doesnt mean im stupid
or can accept any crap u throw at mi okay
yes im petty
so...?
i esp hate ppl throwing attacks on my personality
or bout what i strongly feel about

i used to be able to take everything ppl say bout mi
but nowadays im getting more and more sensitive
mabbi cos i've realised how sucky my life is compared to others
how meaningless it has become to live on
how useless i am
so whenever someone emphasizes on it
i'll get really offended
cos i noe its true but they didnt have to state it out anyways

exactly wad i mean bout now being my low point
when im with ppl, im okay
but alone i think too much
and what i think about are depressing
as i said to chris once.... when it gets deeper into the night, the emo-er i'll feel
so i guess i sld not update at night....

i think i've said too much
i sometimes forget that ppl would be reading this
i think i need a good cry
i've too much pent up frustrations
LAKE house anyone?

Do you "put on a happy face" to hide feelings of sadness? YESSSS!!!!

saw this question in a quiz from jialing's blog
totally describes what i always do...
anyways the quiz was about whether a person has depression
and i think i have the bipolar disorder
hahas totally sounds like ME
can be totally energetic and need very little slp
then suddenly feel really down and emo
LOL

anyways i think im in the down period nowadays
totally shacked ouT
suicide tendency?
hahas i did think of dying when i was in sec 3
tried to cut my wrists
but didnt dare to
hahas...
nowadays i onli think of how it would be if im gonE
would anyone carE?
would it hurt?
would i be forgotten?
then i would start thinking of my old sch-mate
the one who jumped
bout how sad her life just ended like tat
and everyone just moves on with their life
and forgets bout her
how even her then bf now has a new gf
and is like he totally forgot bout her alrdy

so i decided that i either have to become famous first then die
or die in a really weird way
so that i would be remembered FOREVER
hahas....

i think im a sadist =X